Sunday, December 23, 2018

Redeemer

In the dead of night
The stars shine so bright
Bringing forth the wonder
Of all the Heavens we're under
Afar in the eastern land
In the land of drought and sand
There slept an infant child
Sent for issues not reconciled
He was sent to be
The man who'd set us free
The one who'd die for our sin
So we could live in Him
Oh it is so glorious 
To, in Him, be victorious
To live my days for Him
Beginning my life again
So let this season ring
And all His children sing
So He may know our love
And smile from Heaven above

Wednesday, December 12, 2018

My Life

With abandon, I run
Flee now toward Him
From my horrid past
With my sins in tow
I wish to denounce
Banish these things now
Though I’m told it will not
Simply can not be done
This Lord though vows
Promises me now
If I surrender
I will be received

Yes
O my Lord, yes
I lift You up now in praise
And thank You for all these days
Sing
O my Lord, we sing
For Your mercy and grace
And for saving beside You my place

Lord I see You now
Moving with purpose
Toward me in my life
Though how can it be
I don’t deserve You
Nor Your wonder
But here You promise me
And show me Your mercy

Yes
O my Lord, yes
Thank You for making me whole
And for saving and cleansing my soul
Sing
O my Lord, we sing
Of Your goodness and wonder
And for saving us from down under

O, my savior
O, my Lord
My life is Yours
I thank You Lord
O, my savior
O, my Lord
I am forever Yours

And I thank You Lord

Thursday, December 6, 2018

Becoming New

Here I am
With all my imperfections
There is no way
You can love who I am

All of my sin
Is out here on my sleeve
For all to see
To show them who I am

There is no hope
When you stare into my past
At my shadow
That made me who I am

But You smile at me
You open up to me
You bring me close
And accept me

You say that I'm perfect for you
You say my sins are no more
You say my life is new
And thank me for believing in You

Monday, November 26, 2018

Purpose

Insurmountable
The daily depression lurks
It seems hope is lost

Darkness is inside
I feel trapped in my own mind
I claw for a path

Yet a voice creeps in
Telling me to listen close
And bear not this weight

More is still ahead
Let not these demons whisper
But hear divine truth

Come just as you are
Bring all of your pain and hurt
And find your purpose

Darkness must exist
In My greatest creations
So this light may shine

Let it touch the hearts
Of those souls who need your love
So they, too, may shine

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

In The Before


Here I am
In the fire
Dying yet for a breath
I long to feel clean
I beg for a hand
Please reach me
Pull me up and away
Drag me from this hurt
Lead me anywhere
I yearn for feeling
I dream of anything but pain
I plead for help
I need you
I need anyone, anything
Darkness stands resolute
Immovable in my life
Appearing insurmountable
I'm choking on my life
Suffocating on oxygen
On the everyday
On the normal
My chest is crippling me
My heart is betraying me
My brain is my enemy
And I am empty forever

This is much darker than my usual work, however my goal is to bring light to understanding that depression is real, and fake smiles mean nothing if real pain is beneath them. I've felt this way before, not that many have known that, but I find myself in a better place today because of what I surrounded myself with in my life, including the people I included in my life. I hope that if you were to notice real pain that you could be the one who pulls them out of the dark.

Sunday, November 18, 2018

Phoenix

The weight I laid upon myself
Was too much to take
Through tears and strain
My life began to break

Into darkness I tumbled
With no end in sight
Until You showed Your face
And pulled me into light

I prayed for deliverance
From my sorrow
You told me to sing
Like there's no tomorrow

Never before had I heard You
Speak Your way to me
Though I see my path
Through your divinity

To the Heavens now I sing
To thank You for everything
You've touched my life
And now I'm purified

To the Heavens now I raise
My hand to sing Your praise
I give You all my days
To use me in all Your ways

To the Heavens goes my heart
Never again to be apart
As I stand beside Your throne
I thank you for this home

Thursday, November 8, 2018

Undeserving

Deliver me from this
Deliver me again
Though I know
I don't deserve it
Fill my heart
Fill it again
With the family You gave
Whom I don't deserve
Guide my life
Guide me again
On the path You need me
Where I don't deserve to be
Show me why
Show me again
What I did to deserve You
When I don't deserve You
So let me thank You
And thank You again
For the life You gave
The one You deserve

Monday, October 29, 2018

The Atheist

Intolerance for other ideas
Never my intention
Even if hate is directed at mine
I won’t pay it attention
I agree in differences
I will continue to do so
Just please don’t forsake me
For a God you don’t know
I’ve chosen my walk
Alongside His holy path
Never to face Hell’s gates
Where Satan took his wrath
So choose not to believe
And we can still coincide
Because I don’t know hatred
And I know how I feel inside
Let me know of a day
When you want to know my Savior
For I will take your hand
And do you a favor
We will walk in the water
And you will see his face
Because why leave into darkness
When I know a better place
Though if you do not choose
To know of whom I speak
I only wish you the best of times
And I will show when you are weak

Monday, October 22, 2018

People: The Grace

We have followed You wholly
With arms raised to the heavens
With arms raised to You
Clearing dust along the way
The earth is in repair
All due to your lesson
You did not destroy this earth
We did it all ourselves
We are vile creatures
Laden with merciless disregard
Full of violence and hatred
Incapable of unconditional love
Unable to see the light
We sent up too much
With no reciprocity to show
We spoke not of Your grace
Though we accepted it all
I pray as we restart this world
As we venture forth in faith
That you would guide us still
Despite our shortcomings
Even in our darkest hours

Thursday, October 18, 2018

People: The Dark in the Light

Your petty responses
They repulse me
You always wish to see
I breathe worlds
Yet am asked for better
So I provide to the letter
But why should I give it?
You who ask for sight
When you know my might?
You ruined this earth
My creation to you
Yet what do you do?
You stand on the rubble
And you doubt me?
And still hope to see?
I'll show you one thing
Though it's not what you hope
You're at the end of your rope
It's why I still lead
Why I answer your call
So you will not fall
You ask of new followers
Of how they will abide
And come to my side
It's because of adversity
The shaping of you
Through all you must do
To make this world whole
To return from dust
And, oh, you must
For a day is not all light
Nor is a night all day
Therefore there is a way
Follow me into the dark
Fear not this path
For in the aftermath
The light is absolute
With perpetual grace
In the safest place
In my arms
And by my side
No more to hide
So walk with me son
Live with faith in me
And be what I made you to be

Monday, October 15, 2018

People: The Uncertainty

We believe in you Lord
Yet when can we see?
We will walk by faith
Though where will we be?
I see no straight path
Only torturous roads
Leading us further
Into venomous abodes
How can one have faith
When the path we walk
Is but an end of days
Where we end as chalk?
Why not reveal your light
Illuminate our way
So that we remain true
And never stray?
How can we admit others
Followers to your side
For when it becomes difficult
You seem to run and hide?
You've answered me once
With your tedious word
Now speak once more
Prove that I was heard

Thursday, October 11, 2018

People: The Response

You ask of me
To hear you
You down below
Who nigh hear me?
You pray of me
Beg of me
Though my followers are few
You ask of me
Plead of me
Yet hear not what I say
You welcome addiction
You befriend sin
You live freely
Through my name

I gave you life
As well as death
For the sins of my children
And I gave my Son
As he was slain for you
On the cross

You sent your prayers
I heard them all
Yet many of you
Are a one way radio
I am but a convenience
So when I pray
When I beg
Do you hear me?
When I ask of you
Plead of you
Do you reform?
I am a waymaker
I am your guide
So you may walk by faith

Thus, I have returned you
You who are saved
So we may rebirth
Step out from black
As you say
Into the light
For nay can darkness
Stifle light
But especially in the pitch
The blackest of days
The light shines brightest
Have faith
Walk where I lead
Follow my steps
For I am here

Monday, October 8, 2018

People: The Denial

Why, oh why has this happened?
Have we not been dutiful to this land?
We advanced and adapted well
Since this crazy world began
We never asked for anything special
Although thirty percent was our take
We made due with the land beneath
Left none of the waters in our wake
We scoured the earth for all the secrets
All the creation You adorned us
It feels like You've turned away
As everything we made has turned to dust
We will mourn this day as broken people
Survivors of a barren earth's remains
Wondering of what plan You have for us
More importantly still, if our faith sustains
It's hard to see the light in this ash
When the fire has cast us into black
Show us few what You have ahead of us
Prove to we that You haven't turned your back

Tuesday, October 2, 2018

People: The Plague

We were given a home
Created by Him
We abused it once
We abused it again
We were warned
Consequences neared
We laughed in their face
Nothing to be feared
Yet The Day came
Few remained
The dust settled
Peace regained
Not for us though
Our home, taken back
We were irresponsible
Now back on track
We will rebuild
With the earth in mind
Embracing the dirt
The rest, behind

This will be a miniseries of poems. Keep posted as they will be released a couple of days after each other. After the miniseries is complete, there will be photographs to go with the general tone of each of the poems to recap, in picture form, how the miniseries of poems progressed.

Monday, September 24, 2018

Retreat

It comes in the darkness
The voice I hear
Menacing, threatening
It wants my fear
To feed off of me
Drag me down its hole
Devour my whole being
Capture my soul
Though this darkness
This that surrounds me
Retreats from the light
That allows me to see
It fills my heart
Surrounds from within
Denies to be dimmed
Never absent again

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

Freedom

Fire burns through my being
Taking me over slowly
Threatening to consume me
Rather than be a part
I push against these walls
The ones that are closing in
I long to be free again

I struggle to fill my lungs
I scratch the walls at hand
Less and less light shows
Hope is dwindling now
Recovery seems distant
Though, a hand, I feel
Undetermined if it's real

I look for a sign
Search for this cause
For the light I'm seeing
Ripping through the dark
Filling my heart
A newfound flame
Filling me with a name

He doesn't want to rule
Only hopes to be a part
For He created me
Not to be defeated
He created me free
Wants freedom in me
No other way, should I be

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

Rebirth

I want purity of mind
A lack of sin
I long to live right
With no hope for rewind
Deception lurks
Itching the back of my mind
Threatening to end me
Despite all of my works
I yearn for my mind to feel
Peace and tranquility
Tumult to rule my past me
Though it's why I kneel
I pray for this to Him
Begging forgiveness
For all of the undesirable
For all of my sin
I find His pasture there
The peace I seek
I His refuge He offered
In His Holy Care