Monday, July 30, 2012

Patience

Would you wait
If I didn't have the time?
Would you wait
Through catastrophe?
Would you wait
If I simply asked you to?
Would you wait
If nothing would change?
I would wait
Through it all
I would wait.

Deserving

Into the furnace I fall
But an empty vessel
Soul already captured
By the creatures of Hell
Why was I sent south?
Was I an unholy servant?
Was it just meant to be?
Or was it something else?
I wish for recreation
But torture is ever present
Recreation, implausible
So these lashes I will bear
For being unworthy
Of sitting at God's right hand
In hopes of making myself
Deserving of his heaven

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Revenge

This anger swells inside
My soul burns red hot
Fire fills blood shot eyes
Boiling blood courses within
My vision blurs to shapes
All emotion I have, replaced
I am not sure how to handle it
A yell erupts from my lips
Vengeance will be mine
As you have killed all I know
My world, torn apart by steel
Wife, children, murdered
So I solely commit myself
To finding this coward
And bringing his world
Crashing down upon him
Even if it is the death of me

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Doors

Lead me on dear
Let me believe
In the unbelievable
Like being only yours
Beyond imagining
These dreams I weave
Statements are made
Vows to open the doors
Our new life awaits us
Memories we will achieve
As two becomes one
And blessed rain pours
A symbol of approval
As this message we leave
Life is everlasting
As to the heavens you soar

Friday, July 27, 2012

Date

Snow eyes capture me
Bring me deeper than I imagined
I get lost within them
Searching for whatever I can
I realized though
That I had found it
Exactly what I needed
Just on the surface
A beauty unlike any other
A behavior so divine
My world was lifted
In the slight instants soon after
So let me fall safely
Into these snow eyes
And enjoy the luxury
They bring forth to me

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Fortitude

Stand with me
Against this wind
We will not break
We will not bend
Fortitude is key
And we have it within
Dig deep and use it
So this message we send
We will stand tall
Until the very end
And not get jostled
As honor, we defend
That is our duty
Fighting to win
We simply don't lose
This country we mend

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Anticipation

My heart beats faster
As I anticipate arrival
Of a newfound person
That makes me weak
Not in strength
But in my knees
These seconds tick slowly
As I wait on you
But as you enter the room
I realize swiftly, surely
These moments waiting
Were worth it all
As I drink you in
And fall into you

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Wife

She is truly beautiful
A soul unlike another
She is a great woman
And an amazing mother
She is my true love
No doubt in my mind
The best I could have done
The best I could find
I will breathe you in
Live in your light
I want to thank you
As you help me fight

Monday, July 23, 2012

Dagger

Walk these hundred miles
To discover what you must
About all you have done
And all you will do
I hang my head in shame
Apologize for you
The embarrassment is too great
The anger is too great
You have disgraced our name
And dragged it through mud
So I shake my head at you
Wishing for alternate outcomes
None come to my rescue
So I take matters personally
And repay what you have done
As you feel the cold dagger
No more will you walk among us

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Shell

Slowly I retract
Into my shell
For a safety
I had forgotten
This cruel world
Is my long time enemy
So at distance I stay
To protect myself
Never do I care
To live, to love
For I can find myself
Without these things
So into my shell
I retract

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Circumstance

Follow your father
Let his hand guide you
And bring forth light
As I attempt to follow
Your light above
Given unto you
Will be my inspiration
And light onto me
Thank you for your hand
Your helping circumstance
And my lighted path
From thee oh Lord

Friday, July 20, 2012

Sleep

Silent nights creep through
Water drops crack the still air
Nothing is unsettled
As I lie motionless on the bed
I stare somberly, longingly
At where you would lay
But alas I realize now
That you are gone forever
It happened so fast and swift
I could never have prepared
For your love to be absent
In this house we shared
But as I cry uncontrollably
Nothing can be done
As your death will slowly
But surely kill me as well
I pain and long for recovery
But without you by my side
This world is incomplete
And I let myself fall
Deep into a dark sleep

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Gaze

These eyes pierce me
Stare into my soul
See my inner most fears
My inner most desires
I can't escape their gaze
Mesmerizing iris
But such a gentle touch
To these hard eyes
I feel at home within
Not at danger
As I had first believed
These eyes were present for
These eyes reassure me
Telling me of better times
And promising the world
While cursing my faults
And my demons
So I will satisfy these eyes
Smile in danger
And fear them not
My guide through disaster
My motivation

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Ages

Let my attitude be contagious
Though I am slightly outrageous
Walk with me through sages
And truly live throughout the ages

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Art

The beauty of something
So gentle, yet masculine
Is exquisite to my taste
And never satisfying enough
This visual pleasure I drink
Is enough for happiness
To flood through my body
And lift my spirits to new heights
It awes me to realize
That this piece of art before me
Was done with strokes of paint
And displayed for the world
These pieces of art capture me
Leaving me breathless in wonder
As my state of wonder
Remains always refreshed

Monday, July 16, 2012

Illusion

This is just an illusion
The moment of happiness
Because misery is all there is
The only emotion available
I cry in anguish and pain
And hope for better days
But this cloud cover hangs
Looms among my presence
Blinding any future I see
Anything I hope to hold
And I am alone in this world
Darkened into my own soul

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Wandering

Tame my wandering eyes
For they deceive my mind
Causing desires unwanted
And stirring steady waters
Trust is minimal here
Between loving hearts 
And my heart is broken
As she stands away
She wishes for separation 
And space between us
But my life is nothing solo
And this duet must be sung
So on my knees I plea
Yearn for her to be back
And as she walks away for good
I feel my beating heart 
Slow and hiccup a little
As my life loses its meaning

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Relations

Love is not a constant
Constantly deceiving people
Whether within the heart
Or by word of mouth
It is a strong emotion
Dangerous, but rewarding
From person to person
Bonds are made and solidified
Bullets to be taken
Gifts to be given and received
Cherish these relationships
Where love actually exists
Don't take it for granted
Because the love you cherish
Could disappear simultaneously
And these moments will go for naught

Friday, July 13, 2012

Hatred

I push for love
Long for attention
Beyond my control
No belief in myself
My life is incomplete
An open hole
Central to my heart
A void unfilled
I cry in pain
Yell at the world
And hatred consumes me
To become all I know

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Disappear

I am unable to recover
My body is incapable
After the years of stress
And punishment received
I weep in embarrassment
As I wish for recovery
But I cannot do so
And I have failed my duties
To my family and friends
To my lovers and strangers
As I shrink into my shell
And disappear from the world

Believe

Believe in me
Believe in my cause
Believe in this moment
That we all join together
Believe in hope
Believe in life
Believe in beauty
For we all are in our own right
Believe in power
Believe in drive
Believe in courage
To change the world
Believe in the past
Believe in the present
Believe in the future
And what will be soon to come

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Puppet

Hell has risen
Right into your heart
Where you carry out
The devil's work
A puppet of his choosing
So vulnerable
Because of your pain
But I plead
I beg that person
The conscious side
Just beneath him
Please resurface
Fight this madness
And regain control
Break his death grip
Overcome this deficit
For I need you here
With me entirely
As we cast him down
Together into the abyss
Forever and amen

Monday, July 9, 2012

Suicidal

Believe in me
For I need you
Have faith in me
I have none in myself
I walk a broken line
Of a path not wisely followed
Yet my course is steady
Only due to my chaos
Disorganized organization
In a pool of anger
And a sea of frustration
I find myself stranded
In a darkened room
Surrounded by none
As I create my exit
And leave this world alone

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Agenda

Silence falls upon my heart
Blood stops pumping
Decaying begins to reign
And my body grows limp
I struggle for life's breath
Hope for a beat to march to
But I am withdrawn
By the years that have taken me
It is my time to pass on
Into the world beyond this
Having achieved many things
Completing my calling
So I lay down now to sleep
At peace with Death's agenda
Smile at the thought of fulfillment
And allow my world to go dark

Saturday, July 7, 2012

War

Unstable to say the least
I stand in front of this storm
Unprepared for what ensues
As I picture my demise
But it is my duty to stop this
This hail of gunfire and brutality
So behind shields I hide
Waiting for my chance to strike
And until the lights go out
I will do this duty until the end

Friday, July 6, 2012

Unspoken

I stumble over words
Unspoken, unheard
As the only opportunity
To solidify my future
Turns a nose to me
With a back to follow
The absence before me
Felt so roughly
As I drop to my knees
In pain and agony
I wish for a chance
To change my words
To take back what was done
But with the absence
Of words necessary
I have lost my need
For my stability
And I fall into the dark

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Stupor

This world spins
Ever so fast
All around things blur
And my balance is lacking
I try to gain my bearings
The impossible task
My footing runs from me
And I fall to the ground
Pain strikes me
As my head hits the floor
And this stupor
Has taken its final tolls
As I lay in my vomit
And let myself
Fall into a deep sleep
Until the next time

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Destination

These breaths I take
Lead to disappointment
No one satisfied
No means to an end
But support heads close
Proximity drawing nearer
I am broken though
A carrier for death
I simply wait for the scythe
And Death's cloak
With outstretched arms though
They attempt retrieval
Of my life and soul
But it has already departed
On the black train
Destined for Hell

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Miles

Touch me gently
So I know you're there
Kiss me softly
So I know you're care
Hold me closely
So I can feel your heat
Walk with me
So I can follow your feet
Breathe with me
So I can perpetually smile
Marry me
So I can walk with you
The last mile

Monday, July 2, 2012

Search

I searched for you
But you weren't there
The moments were few
And I was unfair
You had cried for me
I had shook you clear
I could not see
All of your fear
I wish I could feel
And replace my choice
Because you are what's real
And I miss your voice
To ignore you
But never again
Something I will never do
I just wish to begin
This time that I lost
And this sadness I feel
I now know the cost
And this is real

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Undervalued

I weep for those
Who feel hope is absent
And that life's purpose
Is strictly death
Why live in such a way?
Because this world
Is covered in brightness
And joyous things
Let it infect you
Stand and breathe it in
For a few minutes a day
Let it sink in
And change your mind
For life is a beautiful
Miraculous thing
That is so undervalued
Until you take the time
To truly look about you
And see it through clear
Optimistic eyes