Monday, December 31, 2012


Upon this ending
Comes beginning
This year is past
To bring the new forth
I find what I praise
Also what I curse
Hoping for the future
Forgetting what's gone
This year will be better
Due to my drive
I only hope yours
To be as grand as mine

Sunday, December 30, 2012


Despite death's stares
In attempt to intimidate
Look fiercely past
Create your own story
Your life is your own
Your body is a canvas
Your abilities, unlimited
The world is a playground
Live without pause
Like there are no seconds
Treasure each moment
As if it was a first
And death will surely
Be at his nerve's ends

Saturday, December 29, 2012


I fear you are perfect 
In every and anything you do
Though I wish for your demise
To prove the opposite
I do not want perfection
Flaws are needed and healthy
That kind of high stringing
Is impossible to maintain
So as with the only day
I will ever ask you to fail
I hope today is that day
Where you may come down to earth


Long and winding
These roads travelled
Impatient and eager
I was in my journey
Trying and tough
The hours to arrive
Satisfying and fulfilled
My final destination

Thursday, December 27, 2012


Please reconsider
I beg for my life now
As I once begged for yours
While you fell so far
I wish things were different
But alas they are not
You are troubled
Not wanting to be saved
Though you must realize
My stature on this situation
As I saw a drowning soul
And jumped into action
Please do not take from me
What I have returned to you
As I beg you please
Please reconsider

Wednesday, December 26, 2012


You fire upon me
In this battle of words
With a one-sided field
Heavily in your favor
I laugh at the pain
The agony you must feel
To put another through
Your most torturous emotions
I pity you overall
Your selfish words
Your evil behavior
Handled with no remorse
Promptly I will turn away
For I have no return
As I pray for your soul
And its release from Hell

Tuesday, December 25, 2012


I wake up in the morning
I wipe my eyes
To see a white morning
And the smiles of my family
They surround me
Presents in hand
Apparently for me
As I gasp at this discovery
I exclaim excitement
As I jump to my feet
Quickly grasping at a present
To have it released to my custody
My family laughs at my joy
Those that I ignore
As I find what I've wanted
With the best Christmas to date
Santa had come
To the best kid in town
As I send hugs around
To be released to play


Sugar and spice
Just some of the recipe
That makes you
Exactly perfect for me
Though today you change
A turn for the worst
I only hope you change
Without me saying something first
For if I do
It will not be good
I would leave entirely
As fast as one man could

Sunday, December 23, 2012


Tears well up
In my blue eyes
As I prepare to leave
And say my good byes
So much unertainty
Things unknown ahead
So many things
I left unsaid
No exact idea
When the next time will be
The only thing I know
I can't wait to be free

Saturday, December 22, 2012


Let me see inside
Deep inside your soul
To your inner most workings
And darkest of thoughts
I will not judge you
Nor hold you accountable
I will simply absorb these notions
And play on what's to come
I believe you are perfect
Not in the sense of the Lord
Though I do believe you are
Perfect for me

Friday, December 21, 2012


The anticipation mounts
As the colorful wrapping approaches
With the wonderance
Of what could be underneath
I shake it
I jostle it
But no clues
Were given there
So now I rip away
Tearing at this disguise
That covers my gift
My sole possession
To reveal what I've wanted
As I jump for joy

Thursday, December 20, 2012


I am an everlasting fire
Filled with pride
Belief in myself
With nothing to hide
I do not shy away
Nor do I scare off easy
This is not just for you
And I don't mean to be cheesy
I can give you everything
Anything you desire
So long as your with me
Come join me in this fire

Wednesday, December 19, 2012


I see you holding the door
Picking up what's been lost
Donating to the homeless
Creating an anonymous hero
You have not been asked
You were never paid
You did not ask for return
Nor do you expect any
You are the unsung hero
That people do not see
Though today you are recognized
Forever immortalized

Tuesday, December 18, 2012


Tenderness is absent
As my heart hardens
You have ruined me
For future acquaintances
I will never get close
Never let my guard down
Now that you were here
And destroyed my trust
So keep clear of me
To allow my trust to rebuild
For people to come
To draw close to me again
Maybe allowing my heart
To soften once more


I scream hideously
For a release from this
This torturous nightmare
From your nightmare
You've drug me through mud
Slammed me into black brick
Your foot on my throat
Knee on my head
Though the day has come devil
For me to regain myself
So in light of our state
I damn you to hell

Sunday, December 16, 2012


These rocks
This sand
Leaves no want
This is my land
This beach
The ocean
I'll sit here daily
Watching easy motion
Living here
No greater life
Helping still
As you're my wife
I will kick back
And relax here
Time to enjoy life
With you, my dear

Saturday, December 15, 2012


You doubt my options
You question my opinions
You argue my decisions
You anger at my actions
I try to calm you
I try to reason with you
I try to make you happy
I try to be with you
But you push me away
You stand off with me
Keeping me at a distance
Trying to stay yourself
Please allow me in
Allow me to be yours
Let me be your man
Let me own your heart
I want you in my life
I want you in this moment
I am glad you were here yesterday
Now I hope for tomorrow

Friday, December 14, 2012


What is it
That causes
To be personified
In people
So hideously evil
They create
Chaos through rage
I anger
At the thought
Of these creatures
Displaying evil
I will go
March against them
Stand in their path
And turn them away

Thursday, December 13, 2012


I love you with passion
Unsung by any other
With the fires of the sun
And the depths of the ocean
It cannot be shaken
Cannot be disestablished
For my heart is yours now
Never to be retaken

Wednesday, December 12, 2012


This moment is perfect
Your intolerance and deception
Karma led you to this moment
Where we know you need it
You hang there gingerly
Clinging to life desperately
Yet your cries fall short
Idly on deaf ears
You have not earned a chance
Another at least with us
Because never have you helped
Or rolled your sleeves for us
Ill behavior and manners
Point to the latter option
I should let you drop to death
The more satisfying option
But who am I to toy with life
As I extend my hand
So you must latch on
Before I change my mind
And send you falling
Down into the pit

Tuesday, December 11, 2012


I look into the skies
To see the anger
The rage possessed
By our almighty Gods
Wrath, destruction, tyranny
All powered by the fear
Of our Almighty One
Of the the mortal deity
He has surfaced now
Shown his face to the Gods
As they now stand weak-kneed
Unprepared for our storm
A revolution of the mortals
Brought forth to the heavens
To overthrow this corruption
And do away with betrayal
So this question is asked
How does it feel, Gods?
To be the little man
Under the foot of a power

Monday, December 10, 2012


I cannot bear this
I am not as happy
Nor will I be able to be
With our situation
You are my girlfriend
And I can't stand it
So to change our situation
You must marry me
I need this commitment
And your love in my life
So take this ring now
And keep it forever

Sunday, December 9, 2012


You leave me wondering
Where you are right now
Where you could be
Where you want to be
I am here waiting
Patiently, politely
Waiting on your smile
Waiting on your presence
But this gut feeling
The instincts within me
Shout foul ground is marked
My happy plains broken
You left me waiting
Still yearning for you
Hoping for a next time
Knowing there won't be

Saturday, December 8, 2012


Let me breathe
Let me breathe
You weigh me down
Keeping me from life
I cannot breathe
I cannot breathe
You are my parasite
Cutting in with a knife
I can now see
I can now see
How blind I have been
All this time
I wish I knew
I wish I knew
That I smothered myself
Now, you are not mine

Friday, December 7, 2012


You leave today
Leaving me empty
No heart to fill
Nobody to hold
Though I realize now
That love is present
More than ever
My heart is not cold
You have tamed a beast
One so unwilling
That you have me puzzled
On a leash if you will
To discover myself
With you at the helm
Now I see into the future
With a whole heart to fill

Thursday, December 6, 2012


Man's best friend
Loyal 'til death
Always good to friends
Guarding against foes
This creature stands firm
For what it knows
What it has been trained for
And for what it feels
It knows friendship
Loyalty and trust
Keep this friend close
Until death do you part
For you'll never know
A more reliable being
Than this four-legged friend
That stands readily by

Wednesday, December 5, 2012


Pitter patter
Tat a tat tat
The tin roof sings
As the sky pours
Listening in wonder
To nature's elegance
Brings a satisfied smile
To my weather beaten face
This barn roof
Does wonders
In keeping me home
And keeping me calm
So thank you
For this love combo
That I may enjoy
Of the roof and rain

Tuesday, December 4, 2012


Too long it seems
Since these familiar faces
Smiled upon me
With happiness and wonder
I have returned changed
A different man
Due to the time past
And the wonders seen
Though on this day
The greatest moment
Is the moment I arrive
Here on this doorstep
I am home finally
Once more happy
So thank you
As I sleep with a smile

Monday, December 3, 2012


Though I hold you
You are not here
Off in a distant place
With someone else
I feel your treachery
Growing more apparent
As I weep inside
In hope for your return
Though I know you are lost
Forgotten for good
As I hope to be released
To hold another one day


The tones ring true
Bringing a smile
Sincere as my love
For this music style
A steady beat
With meaningful words
As I tap my feet
Singing with the birds
Country music fills the air
In this country town
And I must admit
Ain't no better sound

Saturday, December 1, 2012


So foreign is this place
Right next door all along
Yet I find it so different
A land untraveled
Let me set out today
On a long journey
Through these lands
In hopes of a discovery
A discovery of the ages
New habitable lands
New people to meet
And a place to start a life
So let me search now
For the final destination
With the ones I love
In this land so foreign

Friday, November 30, 2012


I am not a perfect man
Nor do I wish to be
I have my flaws, yet
I strive to better myself
I offer happiness and safety
A level head and heart
Chivalry has been practiced
And I would never leave
These are my traits
I would give to an angel
Like yourself
Who is so deserving
I forewarn you though
I will make a fool of me
But I will right my wrongs
And pour my heart out
Just so long
As you can handle cracks
I will mend them properly
And steal your heart
So long as you let me

Thursday, November 29, 2012


I shiver still
As I wilt away
A rose with no petals
And non-existent thorns
I have let my guard down
To let you into me
So that this cold may end
And my icy heart may thaw
You are my true
My one and only
The future for me
My warming love
So I bring you safety
Stable ground and foundation
As I take you in my arms
Two halves into one

Wednesday, November 28, 2012


Please believe me
Believe me in every way
In you mind and heart
Through and through your body
Believe that I wouldn't
Couldn't do this
I am truly innocent
Or else I wouldn't be standing here
Believe that good men
Still exist today
Still function normally
Without cheating or straying
Believe it please
For without you
This world is not worth living
And today would me my last
Believe me please
Believe me please

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


She needs me now
My love and care
My gentle touch
To mend her now
She shakes in pain
Hoping for renewal
Hoping for what is needed
To fix her up
So as I poke and prod
I fix her pains
Make her happy
Until she runs again

Monday, November 26, 2012


Give me a reason
Not to walk away
Forget about
The reasons I should stay
You've betrayed me
My shattered trust
Convince me if you can
Say what you must
But know we will never
Be the exact same
For I am a man
Not your game
Now leave me be
Your traitorous soul
For I need time
To mend my heart's hole

Sunday, November 25, 2012


You give me the option
To dream and to hope
For you support me
In the face of doubt
You believe in what I dream
No matter how farfetched
Those dreams may be
You push me forward
It took you to let me dream
To go after what I wanted
Now let me return the favor
So that you can reach the stars

Saturday, November 24, 2012


You wish to bring me
To justice today?
To take me off my throne
Putting me in a prison?
Touch me if you dare
But I am invincible
With the capability
Of ruining your life
Though I see on this day
The backs turned on me
Rear you the advantage
To put me in my place
But as I run
I smirk wickedly
As you have been outsmarted
And I roam free

Friday, November 23, 2012


A safe haven
To rest my head
To pick up my feet
A temporary bed
Though it is made for rears
I lay down on this day
For exhausted I am
This is the best way
To rest my weary soul
For now and years to come
A faithful couch indeed
Time to drink some rum

Thursday, November 22, 2012


Run lightly
Move smoothly
Fluid and swift
Through the night
Avoid the dark
Capture the light
Deflect evil
Absorb the pure
Do not fall
Stand tall
In the light
From my heart
I will shelter you
I will keep you
For now
And always

Wednesday, November 21, 2012


I find safety with you
Like never before
You have everything
I simply adore
I try not to tell you
How much I care
Because to make you dream
I would not dare
Reality is all that counts
Not what could be
Because I want it all
I want you with me
I realize the doubts
And the struggles ahead
But I ask for your trust
To let "I do" be said

Tuesday, November 20, 2012


Your eyes capture my soul
Illuminating every corner
Of my once cold heart
Now thawed by your essence
I need not to retreat
For I welcome this feeling
With open arms
As I search for yours
The heart of purity
I have always seeked
I wish to make you mine
Now and for the foreseeable
So despite the difficulties
That stare us down
Take my hand
And join me here
Close by my side
On this trying journey
And let us see
Where this road leads

Monday, November 19, 2012


You think you know me
You see what I choose
While my alternate
Stays a well-kept secret
As I creep out into the night
Undetected, unsuspected
I have the routine down
Patented and printed
With them on my trail
I worry only about you
Your possible discovery
As I kiss you good night
The night is now mine
To stalk my prey
To lure my victims
I happily take their life
I hope you think me sane
A normal functioning man
I just hope you know
The need of death I possess
One that is insatiable
I must please and facilitate
Until the day I am run down
And shackled in chains

Sunday, November 18, 2012


Tear this prison down
This that holds my life
My family and my friends
Stuck outside
I am bound tightly
By the walls that I built
Impenetrable, impassable
My life is vanishing
I forget these people
Lose these memories
I become undefined
I am losing myself
Now I hope for a hand
To reach down and save me
But the abyss swallows me
Forever I am lost

Saturday, November 17, 2012


Bring forth the light
To offset the dark
Offset the dark
To let the light shine
Let the light shine
To see my heart
See my heart
So you may take it
I want it to be yours
Forever and always
So offset the dark
To let the light shine
So that you may see
My heart in your hands

Friday, November 16, 2012


Beaten and bruised
Broken and shattered
I'm down for now
My pride thoroughly tattered
I want more than anything
To be gone from here
This moment belittles me
Now all I have is fear
Yet there you all stand
The most loyal of friends
To pick me back up
And show me where to begin
Priceless is a word
To describe you all
So triumph I will
Never again to fall

Thursday, November 15, 2012


Let's check these stars
For the imperfections
That are non-existent
To waste some time
Because there is so much
That I need to tell you
That I don't know how
That you must hear
My feelings grow clear
On this day
And I fret uncontrollably
In anticipation of these words
Three words that mean
Commitment and time
But they've never meant more
Than they do now
I hope you feel special
These words mean more
More than you know
And they are all for you

Wednesday, November 14, 2012


A spark of brilliance
Flashes in my mind
A moment of clarity
To free me from this bind
Charm and cunning
The quality traits
To free me from death
Despite all the debates
Opinions matter not
As the wooden gavel drops
My fate decided
To freedom I hop
A crazy grin crosses me
As I run hastily away
Happy with the outcome
I am freed wrongly on this day

Tuesday, November 13, 2012


Nerves build
Mounting anticipation
Sweat lines my brow
Furrowed in anxiety
I know not what comes next
Yet I know it needs to be here
As I sit, tensed
Hands clinched, eyes wide
The moment of truth upon us
I rise to my feet
To discover the news
Most important received
The positive outcome
Relieves this weight
As a grin spreads wildly
Bringing me freedom from myself

Monday, November 12, 2012


You look down on me
From your official office
Thinking yourself a God
But we are the same
Right place and time
With a dice of charisma
Rifled you to the top
With everyone's support
But did they know
That you would steal jobs
Destroy money
And ethnically cleanse us?
I think not, tyrant
So today I march forth
With their support
To bring down this reign
Planting forth a new dawn
A dawn of freedom

Sunday, November 11, 2012


I can feel these walls
They bend in the wake
Of the ensuing evil
Yet they do not break
I have fortified
And stabilized my defenses
From the terrors of my mind
From your evil senses
You have done nothing
That has pleased me
Bringing out the worst
Never setting me free
So here it is Lucifer
My line in the sand
For I am not the devil's patsy
But I am God's right hand
So as I turn my back on you
I hope you feel this hole
For this will be the last time
You will see my soul

Saturday, November 10, 2012


Become vulnerable
Unlock your emotions
Your angers and trepidations
I will be your crutch
I need not a thing
But your undivided love
For I am a loyal man
A better companion
I will always please you
Always praise you
Please let your guard down
Let me into your heart
For what shall I do
With a guarded soul?
That belongs to the woman
I am smitten by?
You do not scare me
I will stay so close
You can feel my heartbeat
And know it is yours
Just so long as you let me know
That yours is for me
For the current moment
And for eternity

Friday, November 9, 2012


I am uncontrollable
Because my heart
Has clouded my mind
I don't try to reason
I don't try to step back
Because this is exactly
What I've been waiting for
Gorgeous and kind
So beauty isn't skin deep
You have proven stereotypes
To be just that
You are in my heart
As I fall hard
But there at the bottom
There you are


Thunder rolls forward
Striking fear
Into the hearts of many
As it's companion draws close
Circulation builds up
Winds increase speed
This day will be disastrous
As it is too late to run
I stare at the beast
It gnashes its hungry teeth
Ripping apart this town
Doing its worst
But as soon as it came
It is gone again
Leaving damages
Only it could create
Havoc and mayhem
From this tornado

Wednesday, November 7, 2012


This kiss
Falls on dead lips
As death has come
Taking you aboard his ship
No reason why
Just selfish rights
As death's bell tolls
On this cold night
So young was she
And vibrant too
But yet you came for her
I know it pleased you
But now I await
The day we set sail
For wrath now controls me
In revenge, I shall not fail

Tuesday, November 6, 2012


You bring me here
To a dark place
That makes me realize
Your are the devil's advocate
Trying to capture
My body and soul
Damn me downward
For this and next eternity
But you will not win
For if you do
I will drag you to Hell
To damnation with me
Weigh your options
Remove this death grip
Have your life
So that I may have mine

Monday, November 5, 2012


Let these words I speak
Ring within your ears
I will try to touch your heart
Endlessly for years
If you allow it
I will live within
Waiting for that special moment
Where two lives begin
You bring me joy
And peace the same
So know this truth
I can't forget your name
I breathe these words
Lined entirely with truth
And I know what I speak of
Despite my youth
So let these words I speak
Ring within your heart
So that we may live in peace
And never be torn apart

Sunday, November 4, 2012


Not present in you
Yet you persist
There are many
My vision is clear
Head is leveled
Yet I still see nothing
Of these impurities you claim
They may be present
And escaping my sight
Or they could be the variety
That make me adore you
Whichever of the sort
You will not fade
From my mind or heart
Imperfections or not

Saturday, November 3, 2012


Let the light within
Bring you to your home
When you are lost
When you are weary
Be strong through adversity
To prove you are truly
Made for these perils
And even more for these triumphs
May darkness never creep
Quietly into your soul
And may your light stay pure
So that others may shine as well

Friday, November 2, 2012


Your heart is not clouded
For sorrow is powerful
And to move on
Is not within you as of now
So rather take this sorrow
Make it your fire
Cross these vast oceans
Maneuver these foreign lands
Be not afraid of your journey away
But let it be written
Let it be recorded in stone
That you were here
Troubles will never cease
But rise over what burns
Build upon fiery passion
And take your life to new heights
I will always be in your heart
Never gone from you
But you are the captain of your ship
And the time has come to set sail
Just remember my love will follow
No matter how high or how low you go
Forever and always
I am with you

Thursday, November 1, 2012


You bring something
To the table
That no other
Could ever dream
Such an object
That priceless
Is literal to this
As per its worth
I am so lucky
You give it to me
Your heart
My greatest treasure

Wednesday, October 31, 2012


From the ashes
Beginnings may
And form
But in this case
Ashes symbolize
An eternal
Bringing forth panic
To the people
Who follow Him
The Lord
A phoenix does not
On this day
But alas
This changes the human
Mind and spirit
As we strengthen our fortress
And protect ourselves
With bloody hands
To be free

Tuesday, October 30, 2012


Lucifer, take forth
My soul
For I wish not
To live within the times
Of the Apocalypse
I weep at the thought
Of torture and
Seeing my family
Ripped apart
From the inside out
I would rather be
Beat and broken
For centuries on end
Than live within this
So God, forgive me but
Your absence gives me
No alternative
I will still look up
To You
But it will have to be
From below the ground

Monday, October 29, 2012


Mother nature
You rear your head
Firing forth your very
I fear not
For God matches up
Very well with your
Your destruction
Will not damper
Or control my
So do what you will
But I will stand up
And will not be

Sunday, October 28, 2012


In this canyon
I find myself lost
Vast areas
I have no bearing
I wander aimlessly
Hoping for guidance
But no aid is near
As I wander on
I soon realize
My situation
Is not wandering
In this canyon
My mind betrays me
As I scratch these walls
Watch the paint peel
And I drift away


You cherish me
But do not see
That it is he
Who despises thee
Despite poise
He employs
His dastardly boys
To defeat me
But all I bring
Is a ring
And as I plead
He reluctantly accepts
So through resistance
I wouldn't miss this
As you my witness
Help turn a new page
Of a brand new life

Friday, October 26, 2012


Let your feet guide you
When your heart grows weary
For fatigue is a mindset
And is therefore beatable
It isn't about strength
Or quickness of foot
It is about heart
And the will to continue on
The victory may not be
Riches and fame
But the reward is
The internal satisfaction
You know that you did
All that you could
Without pause
Without regret
And it may hurt now
But wait and see
That this personal pain
Will become your glory

Thursday, October 25, 2012


Hearts ring true
With our deepest desires
Our most passionate wants
And our most desperate needs
It just so happens
That your heart
And the need to be inside it
Is all of these things for me
I want to be adored by you
My very existence praised by you
But alas, this seems an impossibility
A task never to be realized
For I question your notice
Of my existence at all
As I fawn over you
Shyly from afar

Wednesday, October 24, 2012


What is it
That inclines us so
To venture away
From those who care for us?
They shelter us
And clothe us
Even give their love
And undivided attention to us
Yet we rebel
Standing against them
Isolating ourselves
Without cause or reason
But today
An epiphany occurs for me
Lighting my darkness
Showing me the truth
I am forever so grateful
For the charity
The hospitality
You have so humbly shown
Despite our kinship
You were not required, never faltering
So for that, I say
Thank you for now and forever

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


Internal peace
A priceless treasure
One cherished by the few
Fortunate enough to possess it
But I have it not
My body is at unease
A constant state of torment
And heightened terror
But today I take control
Of all that is mine
Heart, mind, and soul
Forever will I be at peace
And I will project this
To allow others to possess
And treasure it with me

Monday, October 22, 2012


These uniforms
Mean nothing
Except when death
Or war is present
They are much more
Than the negativity
They are associated with
And recognized for
They represent
The initial liberty
On this ground
But so many
Unless personally touched
Forget or ignore
The true meaning
Yes, violence occurs
But for the freedoms
And liberties you treasure
We exist

Sunday, October 21, 2012


Let me be
She said
Leave me now
She said
But I refused
Forget about me
She said
Stop loving me
She said
But I refused
Don't do this
She said
Live your life
She said
But what's a life
Worth living
Without her
So I refused

Saturday, October 20, 2012


Seize the day
Is what you say
But on this day
I must give away
My chance anew
For me and for you
With the next thing to do
To sail off into the blue
Ocean of lies
That was my demise
The world of lies
That clouded your eyes
So death comes now
As I allow
He takes me now
And we travel down
So goodbye to you
Whatever you do
Be honest to you
For these moments are too few

Friday, October 19, 2012


Find me
For I am lost
Common sense and wherewithal
I have tossed
The world is cruel
That much is certain
Please blind me from it
Pull down my curtain
I am immature
To think I would have made it
But the idea of that
Is completely outdated
Let me do right
And make amends
Because on this forgiveness
My life depends

Thursday, October 18, 2012


Running, running
Always running
Running from me
Running from you
I never stop
Can't stop
Running and running
Always running
From my past
From my present
From my future
From my life
I never want to own up
Never want to live it
I will run until I can't
And then I will keep running
Running, running
Always running

Wednesday, October 17, 2012


Why must you squash us?
A harmless breed
Simply poking along
Bot bothering anyone
I have a future you know?
I will become beautiful
To make this world better
But you'll never see that
All I have to do
Is spend a cocoon
Simply wait a while
And I spring into a butterfly

Tuesday, October 16, 2012


I see the girl
Of my dreams
In my dreams
She smiles at me
And gently runs
Her fingers
Through my hair
I don't know
Why it is
She chose me
I am grateful though
Why though
Is she
Only present
In my dreams
When I want her here
Right now
To be with me
In reality

Monday, October 15, 2012


Terrible moments past
Cloud the present situation
Leaving unhappiness looming
Impossible to vacation
I try to breathe deep
Let my emotions free
But this anger brews deep
Attempts to consume me
Takes me down
Covers me whole
Takes my life
Consumes my soul

Sunday, October 14, 2012


Do you love me
Because I don't feel
Or recognize it
If you do
I love you much
And I try to show you
Let you recognize
That I do
You are my whole world
My navigator
Don't let me get lost
Without you

Saturday, October 13, 2012


Memories made
And lost simultaneously
But the bonds forged
Can not be forgotten
These moments
Treasured internally
Told about to many
Acknowledged by all
This is what I live for
This is why I breathe

Friday, October 12, 2012


The wind howls by
As the cold draws close
I brace myself for it
With lack of preparation
It is not my enemy
Nor is it my foe
But I know my place
As collateral damage
In its path of destruction
And among its changes
Lead me to freedom
From your path
So that I may live in peace
In warmth and happiness

Thursday, October 11, 2012


Let my breath
Help you realize
What it is
I live for
Just in case
It was unclear
My path
Leads to your door
I live for you
So please help me
By letting me in
To hand you my heart

Wednesday, October 10, 2012


Tell me I'm wrong
Tell me I'm stubborn
Tell me I'm imperfect
Tell me I'm all right
Tell me I'm a dork
Tell me I'm ignorant
Tell me I'm late
Tell me I'm incapable
Tell me anything you want
Anytime of day
Just don't tell me
That I don't love you

Tuesday, October 9, 2012


I am young
Mistakes are often
Successes are few
But passion is constant
In what I say
In what I do 
In my motions
And in my relationships
I love often
Forgive easy
And live
Within the moment

Monday, October 8, 2012


Hold me closer
Let me free
From myself
And my emotions
I am caged
Like an animal
Unable to escape
Incapable of freedom
But you will set me free
And for that
You must know
I believe you to be
My savior

Sunday, October 7, 2012


Here comes death
Here comes death
Here comes death just for me
To take me forward
To take me forward
To take me forward into heaven
No one knows
No one knows
No one knows what death will bring
But I know
But I know
That this is what's right for me

Saturday, October 6, 2012


You give me a fever
Unknown to me
As it sweeps and overtakes
My heart and soul
I burn with passion
But feel no mutuality
As your eyes appear dead
And light is absent
I plan to change that though
I plan to give new light
New passion and love
To your life
Just give me a chance
To get close
And show you
What love truly is

Friday, October 5, 2012


Always beating
This heart of mine
It's always beating
Beating for one
And only the one
The one who is mine
She is my world
My everything
My spark
My grace
My happiness
My heart recognizes
With more than a beat
As if it was clapping
A standing ovation
For the happiness it feels
Never felt before
But now we are settled
Mind, heart, and soul
Unanimously choose
This woman
Gowned in front of me
Until death

Thursday, October 4, 2012


Fire fills my lungs
Consumes me
Overcomes me
As my rage heightens
This evil I feel
Creeping through me
Becomes my life
My new persona
I hate this way
But I cannot escape
As I disappear
Replaced by an imposter

Wednesday, October 3, 2012


Lay this down
The hammer I bring
Before wrath
Is brought to your feet
It will rain on you
All of your sins
As I close your eyes
For all eternity

Tuesday, October 2, 2012


The mirror shatters
As I gaze upon it
The ugly duckling
Is my role
So I will transform
And mold myself
Into a good
Neigh, a great man
Manners, kindness
Mercy and empathy
Leading qualities
Of great men
Though sadly I realize
Despite these things
No on will ever love
The ugly duckling

Monday, October 1, 2012


Tell a story unseen
With tones unheard
I captivate you
And hope for you
To bring me close
These eyes
Your eyes
Captivate me
Forever and after

Sunday, September 30, 2012


Insanity brings new perspective
A new outlook on my future
This former cookie cutter life
No longer a priority to me
I plan to deface my body
To destroy any progress made
In any field or relationship
And fly solo through it all
I beg you to understand
And support my new choice
For I am beyond your's or God's help
So let me give in to insanity
And wallow through life

Saturday, September 29, 2012


I roam silently
This unpaved path
With so many questions
So many curiosities
To try to find my way
My way home
My way back
Back into your arms
But you have disguised it
Distorted it endlessly
To hide from me
And keep me away
So keep away I shall
Until into your heart
And into your life
You take me in

Friday, September 28, 2012


He can be your hero
If you let him try
He can be your everything
If you forget good bye
He would drop anything
To save your day
And make a fool of himself
Begging you to stay
Let your guard down
Allow him to see you
Give him experience
It's what you should do
I see how he looks at you
And likewise you the same
But unless you allow sunshine
There will always be rain

Thursday, September 27, 2012


I wish to fade silently
Causing no more damage
After what I had done to you
With an icy heart
You never deserved it
There was no reasoning in play
Just the simple math of us
And I botched it
Cold feet aren't to blame
Just a gypsy's soul
And feet for running
That were obviously used
But I see my mistakes
And note my downfalls
Though now I am a better man
So let me fade away as such

Wednesday, September 26, 2012


Let me into your heart tonight my dear
All I have is my hat in my hand and my heart on my sleeve
Let me warm you and rid you of your fears
In a true love, let me make you believe
I know it seems impossible to you now
But I will treat you as a queen in her home
So do not doubt what it is or what we may allow
For I have what I want and will no longer roam

Tuesday, September 25, 2012


Trust governs my choices
Rendering me idle
I find no trust earned
No action worthy of attempt
Some underlying reason
Why I was put here
In this deceitful place
Among the sewage and rats
Nothing honest is present
So I shall search for it
A trustworthy world
That lies among snakes
And feeds off the weak


Here I am
Your worst nightmare
Not a monster
Not the devil
I am you
Your reflection you see
Your own voice
Haunting you forever
You can't shake me
I will destroy you
From the inside out
Until you are no more

Sunday, September 23, 2012


Through the looking glass
Views distort unfairly
Sides are taken
Wars are waged
So this time I will join
I will go to war
My hands will be bloody
Covered in treachery
Or is it just this distortion
My view impaired
By this looking glass
That brings your demise

Saturday, September 22, 2012


Hindsight vision is perfect
When it comes to anything
Whether that one drink cost you
Or whether it was the one word unsaid
Regardless of your choices
You should always walk on
Trudge forward if you must
But never lose sight of the present
You will fall down in your time
So long as you get back up
Learn from your mistakes
And live your life fully

Friday, September 21, 2012


This day brings forth
A new era of belief
One that represents
Greater than any other
Stronger stature
Prouder following
I live for this moment
To follow proudly
Because one day 
I will lead it all
After years of servitude
I will exact my plan
I will take it by force
Overthrow power
Create my own following
And become a tyrant

Thursday, September 20, 2012


Whether I'll be there pickin peaches
Or holding your cold hands
I'll be there in the morning
Just trying to make us plans
You know you are the greatest
A sugar that is oh so sweet
I see a magical future
I hope you'll spend with me
Because I don't wanna imagine
A world without your kiss
So every moment you're gone
Know that it's you I'll miss

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


These days I wander
Without aim
Without poise
No goal in sight
But here I weigh
My options
My choices
With nothing to show for
All I can see
Is emptiness
In my forward sight
For the near future
Let me be inside it
Let me own the emptiness

Tuesday, September 18, 2012


The moon is absent this night
Much like you are from me
I feel you deep within
Though I pine for your presence
This night divinely set
For the creation of love
From the prick of a thorn
To the blooming of a rose
Ice melts as I have done
My heart a puddle at my feet
Your voice resonating in my ears
The sweetest harmony heard
Your beauty blinds me
And I am humbled still
I will call you mine
As my persistence drives me
Forward on, forever if need be
I will fall off this earth
If it means you share my name
And to the end of time I travel
To make all of this reality
In your eyes and your heart
I hope to embrace you
Once and forevermore

Monday, September 17, 2012


I am watched with beady eyes
Captive to this primitive kind
Such insignificant morsels
Yet no place to hide
I am a king of kings
Where I come from
So I need to be released
I need to have my freedom
So here I pace 
Back and forth without end
Waiting for that day
To again feel the African wind
I am a proud lion
Not someone's pet
So set me free
Or live with this regret

Sunday, September 16, 2012


This well I find myself in
Is deeper than I could fathom
I try to jump and climb out
But to no avail, I fall
Continually, I realize
My situation seems impossible
These people trying to help
I drag down with me
So I cave this well in
Bring it down around me
So that this inevitable death
May bring me final peace

Saturday, September 15, 2012


The universe unravels
This winding road
Placing me firmly
On its path
Though I fear it
And dread its presence
I welcome it
All the same
Divinities unknown
There is always a reason
For things becoming
So I welcome it
Unexpected happenings
Things left undone
This road is my path
To my destiny

Friday, September 14, 2012


I need this for me
A moment of adrenaline
Uninterrupted, unbroken
So that I may get my fix
Some call me junkie
Others an addict in general
But I say otherwise
Because life is too ordinary
I get no satisfaction 
Out of walking calmly
So here I fall to the earth
And I am finally happy

Thursday, September 13, 2012


Let him breathe
Let him stretch 
Let the plane touch down
He's got another to catch
Big day for him
One he won't miss
For he's only got one chance
He must see this
Fly and drive
He moves as fast as he can
Amazed with himself
And all this time he ran
He bursts through the doors
Her eyes move to see
As she pushes once more
To reveal a baby as beautiful as she

Wednesday, September 12, 2012


Give me someone to hold
Give me someone to love
Give me someone to admire
Give me someone to respect
I weep alone here
With my head in my hands
Longing for my love
My unknown love
Until I saw you
I knew what I had to do
It made no difference
We would be together
She did not see it yet
But patience and charming
I would allow to work
So I could have someone to hold
Love, admire, and respect

Tuesday, September 11, 2012


Who are these monsters
These massive monsters
That fear me so
As a scary monster myself
They attempt to squish me
As I scurry away
To my base I created
For these escapes
But here they come
Lumbering after me
To destroy that too
As I attempt to escape
But alas, my luck has run out
As their massive foot
Is brought down swiftly
To defeat this spider

Monday, September 10, 2012


The taste of orange
Is not one explicable
It must be experienced
To be related in life
So as I drink this
As I chew this
My taste buds overtake
And let me know
How tasty I find this
The taste of orange

Sunday, September 9, 2012


My back aches with intensity
Day after day of pain
For a purpose, a cause
So these pains can become worth it
My child, my wife
The food on the table
The roof over our head
The clothes on our back
So here I sweep
There I serve
Two jobs steal my time
But not without purpose
I will provide for my loves
And do whatever it takes
So let my back ache infinitely
As long as I can provide forever

Saturday, September 8, 2012


This is freedom
The right to march on
On my own path
With no guidance needed
Let us walk ourselves
And find our way forward
I believe in myself
I believe in this moment
When I take my future
Take advantage
Of every moment
And every breath

Friday, September 7, 2012


This anticipated moment
Never before experienced
But today is my day
The first of many to come
A smile shoots across my face
My hands clinch excitedly
As the card hits the table
And 21 is presented to me
In the form of jack and ace
Suited in spades

Thursday, September 6, 2012


The rain pours
As the sun shines
Setting the tone
For an odd day
A day of greatness
Or opportunity thereof
That I plan to use
To take advantages
Lord, give me wings
To fly through this
To allow it all to be done
Anything needed
After all, He set the day
So let me live
In these moments
He has granted me

Wednesday, September 5, 2012


I know not what drives you
What I do know about you
Is that you are a stranger
To me and my friends
You stand there and speak
Of a man nonexistent
As though he is your friend
And claim faith over insanity
It is not logical to hear
Though it is inspirational
So I will stay and listen
As my mind becomes an open book
Faith becomes a defined word
I have a new direction
As this prophet has shown me
What there is to praise

Tuesday, September 4, 2012


Line these walls with gold
So that I may be properly surrounded
For a palace of priceless metals
Is all I deserve and more
I am a priceless jewel myself
So I must surround myself with such
Therefore, I demand all cuts and colors
From every corner of the world
My neediness you ask?
Well, I am a prince of greed and gluttony
I must possess all I can
Because to have it all
Is never enough

Monday, September 3, 2012


I walk these miles
Wear down these shoes
For you, to show you
To show what I have to lose
Everything and nothing
Because what I truly need
I don't have yet
But for it, I will bleed
I do bleed my heart out
For you, and what I hope for
Just an absent emotion
I feel is not a reality anymore
But I will strive for it
Let my heart pine
For I feel love true
And I want you as mine

Sunday, September 2, 2012


Tra la la la la la la
Do you hear the sparkles?
I sure do
These walls can't silence them
I wrap myself tighter
Or should I say
My friends do that for me
As the sparkles sing to me
Tra la la la la la la
This echoes through me
Like a hollow hall
With no occupants home
I feel empty
I scream out loud
I fight this tightness
This tight jacket
As I ignore the singing
And slam against these padded walls
No escape, no escape
Insanity has a hold on me
How do you feel?
Because I know how the sparkles feel
Tra la la la la la la

Saturday, September 1, 2012


Let this tale be told
That I withstood odds
Unimaginable, immeasurable
For you, for God
I could have quit
Thrown in the towel
Waved the white flag
And given up completely
But I instead drove on
I put in extra time to triumph
Because you believed in me
You made me believe in myself
So I stand before you today
A recipient of victory
As I beam endlessly
With a smile unshakable
This, my moment of valor
All because of you
My family, my friends
Thank you all

Friday, August 31, 2012


Click clack
Click clack
We march to this battlefield
Yells erupting from within
We have prepared for this
We have wanted this
The smell of blood
Hard work
Click clack
Click clack
This game is ours
Yes, this game is ours
It's that time y'all
Sixty minutes to prove you're the best
It's game time
Are you ready?

Thursday, August 30, 2012


Visible breath appears
Disappears simultaneously
I smile to myself
As I wrap up tighter
My favorite time is here
That which I can bundle up
And cuddle with my darling
With no needed excuse
Snow will fall
Trees will be bare
Winter is here
My favorite time of year

Wednesday, August 29, 2012


My hands wrap tighter
Sweaty palms, beady eyes
A grin overtakes me
Shaking under vibrations
An amount of joy
Unmeasured by another moment
As this one steals my heart
I throw this machine into gear
And tear away into the night

Tuesday, August 28, 2012


You lay motionless
I smile at your beauty
A slight graze of the hair
I laugh at a hint of drool
Ever so slight
From your
Breathless lips
No longer a breath to be had
As I speak gently to you
Lying motionless
With that knife
Ever so slight
From your
Breathless lips

Monday, August 27, 2012


Why do I feel this way
Poisonous tingle at my throat
My heartbeat racing
Uncontrollably my blood pumps
Why is this happening
What has caused this illness
This disease overtaking me
My body now a captive
I fight to stay alive
To stay awake, eyes open
So I am not a victim
In this, my own world
Because this poison is my own
Put in place by incident
Stress has made me want freedom
So instead of taking a high road
This was my escape
But Lord save me now
In my time of dying
For I regret my choices
And wish to be at peace
Set me free from myself at once
Let me defeat my demons
And release all my hatred
So I may live once again

Sunday, August 26, 2012


You look past me
An individual ignored
But it will not shake me
It will not deter me
I am here to stay
I will not let this end
Years of effort put in
With no results to date
I am a shy young man
But a blossoming boy
Talking to you has been
Well, impossible thus far
But today I will approach you
I am ready to speak
And as your eyes lock on mine
I lose my tongue to the air
And all words planned
Now never spoken
I will start anew tomorrow
Back at square one

Saturday, August 25, 2012


The fear mounts inside
Watching these dangers
Towering obstacles
Terrifying predators
I scurry as quietly as I can
Trying to stay under radar
Although believed inevitable
I will attempt it
I treasure my life
My family and my home
So let me live in my hill
An ant of peace
And for peace

Friday, August 24, 2012


This is my life
I will be quick
This is my weapon
My attitude
My drive
I will finish first
I will strive
This is my drive
This is my victory

Thursday, August 23, 2012


I live in the clouds
Constantly in over my head
But no one should live low
Looking up at what could be
I sit in the clouds for a reason
To prove that the impossible
Is not actually so
This illusion will not detain me
And keep me from my goals
I will scratch and claw
Bite and rip my way forward
To get what I want
So live on the ground if you please
But you better get used to the idea
Of looking up at me
While I stand on my pedestal

Wednesday, August 22, 2012


Dead in the water I lay
Sitting duck to a predator
Unaware of my vulnerability
Or the coming onslaught
It is destined I be here
In this very moment
In my prison cell of wood
Confined by those I trusted
I am a betrayed man
With imperfect evidence in play
So dead in this water I lay
Victim of my innocence

Tuesday, August 21, 2012


You would not believe
How I truly feel
I saw you once
Infatuated would be the word
Let me just say
That this beauty approaching
Is not simply put
So here I struggle to speak
This is my chance
For the girl of my dreams
But alas, I am fruitless
As words unspoken
Proved to be my achilles
And in retrospect
I am shamed by my efforts
As the girl of my dreams
Walks away forever

Monday, August 20, 2012


I lay on the field of battle
By my worst enemy
Lost my own battle
A broken being
All hope to carry on
Lost to sea
I am gone now
Never again to return

Sunday, August 19, 2012


I hope you understand
What it is
That's about to take place
In this very moment
A transformation
A rebirth
Of a man you have never known
Of a man never witnessed
A man possessed
With an unprecedented drive
A will to win
With the world in his palm
Reigns in his hands
No unlikelihood present
Nothing unattainable
He will take it by storm
Bring it to present
And we will all be here
As a part of history
As a part of the reshaping
Of our world

Saturday, August 18, 2012


Why do you discount
What I believe?
Who are you
To tell me what is real?
I believe in what I will
And faith is the reason
I need no negativity
From you, deceiver
So doubt all you might
I will not waver
You will not change me
For my faith is strong

Thursday, August 16, 2012


Let me free
From my prison
Let me loose
To my craft
I want to break away
And bring new light
Into a dark world
Surrounding me
Let me free
To set light
Into the world
And other's lives
I will be the crutch
I will be the motive
I will be momentum
I will be the light


I'm dying
Little by little
Day by day
Too early it seems
So much left for me
I wish for extensions
For more time here
But alas, death has spoken
Set a timeline for me
So I act spontaneously
At a whim
To experience
All I can
While I can
Before my time is done
I'm dying
Little by little
But not today
Today, I live

Wednesday, August 15, 2012


Leave it behind
Leave your troubles behind
Be here now
Be here with me right now
I will heal you
Your broken heart
For I know pain
I know your pain
I will heal you
Let me heal you

Tuesday, August 14, 2012


Silently, I move
Careful not to stir you
The angel in my life
Laying peacefully beside me
I am so grateful 
So indebted for her
But it is for that
I must leave now
I am not worth it
So goodbye my angel
And may your feet
Find their path

Monday, August 13, 2012


Lead me down this path
I may never come back
You create a monster
You may not like the result
I did not wish for this
Nor did you ask for it
But your actions are permanent
And this transformation, inevitable
I pity your understanding
Or lack thereof
For now I am different
With you to curse
As these black tides take me
Captive in my own experiences
It is too late
It is too late

Sunday, August 12, 2012


Violence controls our fists
Anger fills our heart
It is saddening to realize
How driven by anger we are
The mere action of another
Can bring us to act
Aiming to harm them
Without pause or regard
People wonder what causes this
And sadly I disagree with them
Nothing causes it to happen
It is simply our nature

Saturday, August 11, 2012


Too much is never enough
Never settle for what you have
When you can strive for more
And achieve greatness
Playing small and for average
Should not cut it in your world
But playing to be the best
Is the only way you should live
I will achieve greatness before death
And empower those in my shadow
Not only to achieve it
But to become better

Friday, August 10, 2012


I crawl and I scratch
For everything I have
I appreciate it all
And take nothing for granted
But there you stand
With everything you were handed
No respect for materials
No respect for yourself
You look down on me
For the minimal possessions
But I pity you
For you'll never have enough
So I hope you recover
From your mental distress
So that you can learn value
And respect for the world

Thursday, August 9, 2012


Let me see you
Vulnerable, unguarded
Put your faith in me
Put your trust in me
If you can't
How am I supposed to
Put my faith in you
Put my trust in you
I will stand vulnerable
Let down my guard
Allow my true colors to shine
So you know who I am
For love can't exist
Without understanding
So I open up to you
And here I stand

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


It pains me so
As you stay in the dark
Withdrawn from life's curves
Unwilling to confront them
It is puzzling to me
But more so than that
It angers me to see
For I know your pain
If you let these things rule
These obstacles before you
You will fall to them
Forever in the dark
So please stand tall
Allow me to help
Allow yourself the pleasure
Of freedom from your mind

Tuesday, August 7, 2012


My eyes impart upon me
The beauty unlike another
Your snow riddled eyes
Your lips so luscious
But more than that exists
Present also is an attitude 
One unlike any other known
More appreciated than another
More beauty than surface permits
And I am enveloped, infatuated
By your entrancing presence
Ever indebted am I
For you have opened my eyes
To more than thought possible
And with this, a new world
Originated from your beauty

Monday, August 6, 2012


Come a little closer
Move a little closer
I need you here now
Need you wrapped up
Tangled up in my arms
With no solution in sight
With no care to move
As our hearts beat together
So this is what they call love
So this is what forever is
I have waited my whole life
And this moment is so grand
I will never be disappointed
I will never be let down
This is our life, as one
And there is no where else
I would rather be
There is no one else
I would rather be with
For you complete my life
And that's all I will ever ask of you

Sunday, August 5, 2012


This shoulder I lend you
Now and for the future
To lean and cry on
In your time of need
You feel yourself a burden
But I assure you otherwise
You are simply in need
I am here to provide
I care about you infinitely
More than I'm sure you know
But here I stand, a rock
Planted firmly in your life
With no sign of removal
Unless specified otherwise
You need me you say?
I will be there to facilitate
I will be there to care
I will be there

Saturday, August 4, 2012


I only know my pain
Isolated in this world
By the demons inside
That possess and control me
My mind is a prison
To which only I am aware
As I turn away help
And supporting hands
Leave me alone now
For only I know my pain

Friday, August 3, 2012


A fire burns within
Not of anger
But of motivation
To impart on my journey
My plan, my path
To find myself
And discover what I can
About my true potential
I am my own man
I am more than ordinary
I will be better

Thursday, August 2, 2012


The only feeling I know
For people with no compassion
No kindness, no mercy
I can not reflect more intensity
Than into this feeling
As I withdraw into myself
To isolate myself in this time
But now I breathe deeply
And relocate my feelings
Into more constructive
Useful behaviors and feelings
I will not stand for hatred
I will deflect it
And own this feeling

Wednesday, August 1, 2012


As I am drawn down
Down into the Earth
I think about what I was
What exactly was my worth?
I weep for realization
That I was merely average
I was never called a gentleman
I was never called a savage
I wish to have been greater
Achieved more in my life
But as I am drawn down
I leave my kids and wife
This casket surrounds me so
No escaping this one
As my average life is complete
My average life is done

Monday, July 30, 2012


Would you wait
If I didn't have the time?
Would you wait
Through catastrophe?
Would you wait
If I simply asked you to?
Would you wait
If nothing would change?
I would wait
Through it all
I would wait.


Into the furnace I fall
But an empty vessel
Soul already captured
By the creatures of Hell
Why was I sent south?
Was I an unholy servant?
Was it just meant to be?
Or was it something else?
I wish for recreation
But torture is ever present
Recreation, implausible
So these lashes I will bear
For being unworthy
Of sitting at God's right hand
In hopes of making myself
Deserving of his heaven

Sunday, July 29, 2012


This anger swells inside
My soul burns red hot
Fire fills blood shot eyes
Boiling blood courses within
My vision blurs to shapes
All emotion I have, replaced
I am not sure how to handle it
A yell erupts from my lips
Vengeance will be mine
As you have killed all I know
My world, torn apart by steel
Wife, children, murdered
So I solely commit myself
To finding this coward
And bringing his world
Crashing down upon him
Even if it is the death of me

Saturday, July 28, 2012


Lead me on dear
Let me believe
In the unbelievable
Like being only yours
Beyond imagining
These dreams I weave
Statements are made
Vows to open the doors
Our new life awaits us
Memories we will achieve
As two becomes one
And blessed rain pours
A symbol of approval
As this message we leave
Life is everlasting
As to the heavens you soar

Friday, July 27, 2012


Snow eyes capture me
Bring me deeper than I imagined
I get lost within them
Searching for whatever I can
I realized though
That I had found it
Exactly what I needed
Just on the surface
A beauty unlike any other
A behavior so divine
My world was lifted
In the slight instants soon after
So let me fall safely
Into these snow eyes
And enjoy the luxury
They bring forth to me

Thursday, July 26, 2012


Stand with me
Against this wind
We will not break
We will not bend
Fortitude is key
And we have it within
Dig deep and use it
So this message we send
We will stand tall
Until the very end
And not get jostled
As honor, we defend
That is our duty
Fighting to win
We simply don't lose
This country we mend

Wednesday, July 25, 2012


My heart beats faster
As I anticipate arrival
Of a newfound person
That makes me weak
Not in strength
But in my knees
These seconds tick slowly
As I wait on you
But as you enter the room
I realize swiftly, surely
These moments waiting
Were worth it all
As I drink you in
And fall into you

Tuesday, July 24, 2012


She is truly beautiful
A soul unlike another
She is a great woman
And an amazing mother
She is my true love
No doubt in my mind
The best I could have done
The best I could find
I will breathe you in
Live in your light
I want to thank you
As you help me fight

Monday, July 23, 2012


Walk these hundred miles
To discover what you must
About all you have done
And all you will do
I hang my head in shame
Apologize for you
The embarrassment is too great
The anger is too great
You have disgraced our name
And dragged it through mud
So I shake my head at you
Wishing for alternate outcomes
None come to my rescue
So I take matters personally
And repay what you have done
As you feel the cold dagger
No more will you walk among us

Sunday, July 22, 2012


Slowly I retract
Into my shell
For a safety
I had forgotten
This cruel world
Is my long time enemy
So at distance I stay
To protect myself
Never do I care
To live, to love
For I can find myself
Without these things
So into my shell
I retract

Saturday, July 21, 2012


Follow your father
Let his hand guide you
And bring forth light
As I attempt to follow
Your light above
Given unto you
Will be my inspiration
And light onto me
Thank you for your hand
Your helping circumstance
And my lighted path
From thee oh Lord

Friday, July 20, 2012


Silent nights creep through
Water drops crack the still air
Nothing is unsettled
As I lie motionless on the bed
I stare somberly, longingly
At where you would lay
But alas I realize now
That you are gone forever
It happened so fast and swift
I could never have prepared
For your love to be absent
In this house we shared
But as I cry uncontrollably
Nothing can be done
As your death will slowly
But surely kill me as well
I pain and long for recovery
But without you by my side
This world is incomplete
And I let myself fall
Deep into a dark sleep

Thursday, July 19, 2012


These eyes pierce me
Stare into my soul
See my inner most fears
My inner most desires
I can't escape their gaze
Mesmerizing iris
But such a gentle touch
To these hard eyes
I feel at home within
Not at danger
As I had first believed
These eyes were present for
These eyes reassure me
Telling me of better times
And promising the world
While cursing my faults
And my demons
So I will satisfy these eyes
Smile in danger
And fear them not
My guide through disaster
My motivation

Wednesday, July 18, 2012


Let my attitude be contagious
Though I am slightly outrageous
Walk with me through sages
And truly live throughout the ages

Tuesday, July 17, 2012


The beauty of something
So gentle, yet masculine
Is exquisite to my taste
And never satisfying enough
This visual pleasure I drink
Is enough for happiness
To flood through my body
And lift my spirits to new heights
It awes me to realize
That this piece of art before me
Was done with strokes of paint
And displayed for the world
These pieces of art capture me
Leaving me breathless in wonder
As my state of wonder
Remains always refreshed

Monday, July 16, 2012


This is just an illusion
The moment of happiness
Because misery is all there is
The only emotion available
I cry in anguish and pain
And hope for better days
But this cloud cover hangs
Looms among my presence
Blinding any future I see
Anything I hope to hold
And I am alone in this world
Darkened into my own soul

Sunday, July 15, 2012


Tame my wandering eyes
For they deceive my mind
Causing desires unwanted
And stirring steady waters
Trust is minimal here
Between loving hearts 
And my heart is broken
As she stands away
She wishes for separation 
And space between us
But my life is nothing solo
And this duet must be sung
So on my knees I plea
Yearn for her to be back
And as she walks away for good
I feel my beating heart 
Slow and hiccup a little
As my life loses its meaning

Saturday, July 14, 2012


Love is not a constant
Constantly deceiving people
Whether within the heart
Or by word of mouth
It is a strong emotion
Dangerous, but rewarding
From person to person
Bonds are made and solidified
Bullets to be taken
Gifts to be given and received
Cherish these relationships
Where love actually exists
Don't take it for granted
Because the love you cherish
Could disappear simultaneously
And these moments will go for naught

Friday, July 13, 2012


I push for love
Long for attention
Beyond my control
No belief in myself
My life is incomplete
An open hole
Central to my heart
A void unfilled
I cry in pain
Yell at the world
And hatred consumes me
To become all I know

Wednesday, July 11, 2012


I am unable to recover
My body is incapable
After the years of stress
And punishment received
I weep in embarrassment
As I wish for recovery
But I cannot do so
And I have failed my duties
To my family and friends
To my lovers and strangers
As I shrink into my shell
And disappear from the world


Believe in me
Believe in my cause
Believe in this moment
That we all join together
Believe in hope
Believe in life
Believe in beauty
For we all are in our own right
Believe in power
Believe in drive
Believe in courage
To change the world
Believe in the past
Believe in the present
Believe in the future
And what will be soon to come

Tuesday, July 10, 2012


Hell has risen
Right into your heart
Where you carry out
The devil's work
A puppet of his choosing
So vulnerable
Because of your pain
But I plead
I beg that person
The conscious side
Just beneath him
Please resurface
Fight this madness
And regain control
Break his death grip
Overcome this deficit
For I need you here
With me entirely
As we cast him down
Together into the abyss
Forever and amen

Monday, July 9, 2012


Believe in me
For I need you
Have faith in me
I have none in myself
I walk a broken line
Of a path not wisely followed
Yet my course is steady
Only due to my chaos
Disorganized organization
In a pool of anger
And a sea of frustration
I find myself stranded
In a darkened room
Surrounded by none
As I create my exit
And leave this world alone

Sunday, July 8, 2012


Silence falls upon my heart
Blood stops pumping
Decaying begins to reign
And my body grows limp
I struggle for life's breath
Hope for a beat to march to
But I am withdrawn
By the years that have taken me
It is my time to pass on
Into the world beyond this
Having achieved many things
Completing my calling
So I lay down now to sleep
At peace with Death's agenda
Smile at the thought of fulfillment
And allow my world to go dark

Saturday, July 7, 2012


Unstable to say the least
I stand in front of this storm
Unprepared for what ensues
As I picture my demise
But it is my duty to stop this
This hail of gunfire and brutality
So behind shields I hide
Waiting for my chance to strike
And until the lights go out
I will do this duty until the end

Friday, July 6, 2012


I stumble over words
Unspoken, unheard
As the only opportunity
To solidify my future
Turns a nose to me
With a back to follow
The absence before me
Felt so roughly
As I drop to my knees
In pain and agony
I wish for a chance
To change my words
To take back what was done
But with the absence
Of words necessary
I have lost my need
For my stability
And I fall into the dark

Thursday, July 5, 2012


This world spins
Ever so fast
All around things blur
And my balance is lacking
I try to gain my bearings
The impossible task
My footing runs from me
And I fall to the ground
Pain strikes me
As my head hits the floor
And this stupor
Has taken its final tolls
As I lay in my vomit
And let myself
Fall into a deep sleep
Until the next time

Wednesday, July 4, 2012


These breaths I take
Lead to disappointment
No one satisfied
No means to an end
But support heads close
Proximity drawing nearer
I am broken though
A carrier for death
I simply wait for the scythe
And Death's cloak
With outstretched arms though
They attempt retrieval
Of my life and soul
But it has already departed
On the black train
Destined for Hell

Tuesday, July 3, 2012


Touch me gently
So I know you're there
Kiss me softly
So I know you're care
Hold me closely
So I can feel your heat
Walk with me
So I can follow your feet
Breathe with me
So I can perpetually smile
Marry me
So I can walk with you
The last mile

Monday, July 2, 2012


I searched for you
But you weren't there
The moments were few
And I was unfair
You had cried for me
I had shook you clear
I could not see
All of your fear
I wish I could feel
And replace my choice
Because you are what's real
And I miss your voice
To ignore you
But never again
Something I will never do
I just wish to begin
This time that I lost
And this sadness I feel
I now know the cost
And this is real

Sunday, July 1, 2012


I weep for those
Who feel hope is absent
And that life's purpose
Is strictly death
Why live in such a way?
Because this world
Is covered in brightness
And joyous things
Let it infect you
Stand and breathe it in
For a few minutes a day
Let it sink in
And change your mind
For life is a beautiful
Miraculous thing
That is so undervalued
Until you take the time
To truly look about you
And see it through clear
Optimistic eyes

Saturday, June 30, 2012


The wind flows around me
As I push the limits
Of the possible
Flying with just a board
These wheels contact earth
With me atop
As I cut through this air
Like a knife through butter
My mind races
With combinations
To please spectating eyes
And as they rise
I realize my fortune
As I am adored
For doing the thing
I love the most

Friday, June 29, 2012


I wake up slowly
No motivation
Very little drive
And no wish of production
Self use and degradation
Not a worry to me
As I lay in pity
In spite of it all
But you are there
And you drive me to rise
Call me to believe
In myself and you
As I lift up my body
Full of hidden purpose
I will find this purpose
And place my confidence
On the greatest motivator
Within you

Thursday, June 28, 2012


Clouds cloak the sky
Blotting out the sun
A world of darkness
Follows close behind
Encouraging evil to walk
And trot happily among us
But they will not get me
I am impenetrable
I can not be corrupted
So I will stand solemn
Strong against this storm
And climb above these clouds

Wednesday, June 27, 2012


Petty worries manipulate
And tease the mind
I only breathe at this point
To defeat my doubters
My life has no major purpose
Or underlined meaning
But I wish for significance
And achieve little
This world is cruel
Judgmental and crude
But I will change this world
With these words
To light up this darkness
And stymie these demons

Tuesday, June 26, 2012


In this euphoric world
Blinders select our vision
And we do not see
What we wish not to
But we are aware of it
We blind ourselves from it
To make this world
As perfect as it may seem
But for what benefit
Will it be so
When the imperfection
Is within us all?
No euphoric state
Will ever be achievable
When the unsteady hand
Of Adam's descendants
Is present and lively
So we fight amongst ourselves
Until we find utopia
Through our eyes
With no one else to stand against
This is genocide

Monday, June 25, 2012


Lost without you
I attempt to call you
Plead with you
But there is no answer
I try to feel you there
But you are absent
Without a trace
And without a sign
But I will not give up
You are my one and only
And I need you now
So my faith will stand true
Never falter
And I will believe
You shall answer my prayer
My plead will be heard
Because my faith in you
Is stronger than ever Lord
And we together
Will be almighty

Sunday, June 24, 2012


Blurs fill my vision
Confusing, swirling world
I love the feeling
My body has taken
Inexplicable motions
And loud conversations
Fill the night sky
With people I adore
I cherish this moment
Intoxicating evening
As the smile never leaves
And the people never fade

Saturday, June 23, 2012


I see through you
Wicked and unkind
You wear this mask of deceit
And tell us lies
But it is apparent
You do not care for us
You are in a race
A competition against rivals
While we pay the price
I anger for us
And only wish for peace
But you who run us
And this free country
Have a better agenda
And I am saddened by this
As you willingly
And timidly watch
As we perish

Friday, June 22, 2012


This alluring aroma
Penetrates my nostrils
A moment of bliss
Aphrodite's presence
Such striking beauty
Pleasure to my eyes
Cloud nine area
A sight beyond reason
Feeling your presence
Ever felt and lasting
I will enjoy our time
And hope for it to last
You are my one and only
The one I need
And I will travel for you
To the end of the earth

Wednesday, June 20, 2012


I shake
I tremble
I anticipate
The coming events
They linger
They loom
They threaten
To kill
To destroy
To conquer
The earth
This home
My home
Our home
Will not be taken
I will stand
I will fight
I will live
For the moments
We make
We love
We share
We are free


Eyes wide open
For this moment
As all our lives
Flash in an instant
Prayers are shouted
Sobs are heard
As this disaster
Begins to close in
I am mesmerized
By its raging beauty
And the destruction
It brings with it
All I can do is stand
And allow it to swallow
Engulf me whole
As God's disasters
Created for this earth
Do their bidding
In keeping the balance

Tuesday, June 19, 2012


Listen to this silence
Befallen upon us
Watching, anticipating
Breath drawn
I shake violently
As I prepare for this
Undefined moment
And hope for the best
Though I soon discover
It is not in the cards
Too good to be true
And I am lonely
In a sea of people
As all eyes sadden for me
And I only wish
To shrink

Monday, June 18, 2012


These demons circle me
Prey of the wicked
I am vulnerable
To say the least
But I must resist
And not let them in
Forcing their way in
It is impossible to stop
I am the only owner
Of my body, mind, and soul
And no demon shall possess
Or triumph over me
They will feel my wrath
My vengeance and fire
And I will cast them down
Back into the fire
That is Hell, these abominations
Begone to never return
Or you shall befall this fate
Once and forever more

Sunday, June 17, 2012


You have betrayed me
Disguised friend
I let you into my life
And you took it from me
I look into your eyes
Choking for life
But you are cold
Emotionless and empty
I reach out and hope
This wretched thing you are
Would turn and help
But to no avail
So as I lay dying
I swear my return
And upon my return
Expect no sympathy
No remorse or pause
Your life will be mine
And revenge will be exacted

Saturday, June 16, 2012


Why would you believe
When there is no hope?
Life becomes meaningless
With no end in sight
I wish for an ebb
In the chaos of life
But none is offered
So I must make my own
I breathe deeply
Close my eyes for a time
Everything slows down
And life seems easier
Hope is restored to me
And I will break free

Friday, June 15, 2012


I find my life tragic
No end to my sadness
From death to failure
Things go wrong daily
I stand strong as I can
But it is overwhelming
And I do not know how
Or if I can weather this
So Lord give me strength
Be my support at my rear
And keep me sturdy
For I will serve you
Unconditionally, entirely
And I must thank you 
For you have given me strength
I have never known

Thursday, June 14, 2012


Death follows me
Closely, looming nearby
Waiting to strike
His very next victim
But it is not me
That he wants
He wants my family
Friends, and even enemies
No one left in my life
When he is done
But it is his job
And the scythe is the tool
I mourn and weep
For the lost ones
But life is not fair
And death is no different

Wednesday, June 13, 2012


Falling hard
Without support
I reach for help
And find a hand
But it was not typical
Not the normal man
He was deceiving
But he loved me
I embraced him
More than any
People ask me
Why I would worship
Such an awful creature
And I tell them
Because he was there
When no one else was
So I worship
This fallen angel

Tuesday, June 12, 2012


Pride for my country
Love for my family
Humor for my friends
Courage for my comrades
I will be nothing
Short of the best
I will be everything
Required to be great
A leader, a follower
I can be these things
A man, a soldier
I am these things
You can't take it away
Unlike a blot of ink
I can't be smeared out
I am everlasting
I am permanent
So live with me
Or live against me
Regardless your choice
I fight with and for you

Monday, June 11, 2012


Hear this silence
A deafening blow
Upon my ear drum
Pushing me down
In pain and agony
A lack of understanding
For the current events
What has caused this
As debris showers on me
I lie motionless
Writhing on the ground
A hand grabs my sleeve
And tugs me up
I see my comrade
His lips moving frantically
But to no avail
This explosion has won
It took my hearing away
And this lion inside me
That drove me to fight
Is now gone
And my will is no more
I wish for one thing
Take me home

Sunday, June 10, 2012


My struggle to win you over
Continues at alarming rates
Intensity is magnified
Emotions are peaked
I fight for this true love
I could surely find elsewhere
But she is so captivating
Leaving me breathless
This siren has surely sung
And I am enraptured
I wish for freedom of her
But alas it is no use
I find myself with urges of death
For other men's attempts
To court and seduce her
She will be mine soon
And there will be no other
But among this bloodshed
And fight over this beauty
She vanishes to the road
Without a sign or sight
And I am left bruised and bloody
A broken soul healing
From my former self

Saturday, June 9, 2012


As the world burns
Everything I know is lost
And the world seems
A pointless place
But it is not my job
To hang my head
In utter defeat
And quit the world I love
I will make due
With the world that is here
Not linger painfully
On the world that once was

Friday, June 8, 2012


Homeward bound I head
But is it really my home?
A troubled mother
An absent father
And dysfunctional siblings
I question my heading
And wonder my advantages
In that broken home
But this is my family
And God has dealt me
The hand He saw fit
And yet again
They are my family
No matter what
I can do nothing else
But love them
This is my nature

Thursday, June 7, 2012


This world is not fair
I pray and I pray
But to no avail
As my family dies before me
Never have I strayed
Or stood against my Lord
But now I just want to quit
And give up faith
But I can not
I must keep my faith
Through hard times
And better times
But this will be my true test
As I am broken down
Just to get built up again
And I am still here

Wednesday, June 6, 2012


My heart pounds
Feel it in my chest
Hear it in my ears
This moment is the best
Of my recent memory
To be here with you
On my knee here
Only with what you choose
I am scared of it
Because you hesitate
And a specific choice
I hope to motivate
But you shake your head
And denial I see
So by myself I move
Forever it will be

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


This smell of gun powder
The rain of debris
And the noise surrounding
It scares me
But I cannot be afraid
My comrades need me
Need me to be strong
And so I will be
But this moment now
It calls for more
Sacrifice is necessary
As I jump forward
And the world goes dark
I am called a hero
Because I saved soldiers
No, I say
I did my job
And exactly what was asked
In the line of duty

Monday, June 4, 2012


Rage fills my eyes
Blind and infuriated
I lash out
As death surrounds me
But this rage
Is accompanied by sadness
And I can't control
This forceful anger
Please subdue me
And keep me from this damage
I do not wish to harm
Or maim anyone or thing
I wish to be normal
But nothing will help
No drug or man
So tie me up
Lock me away
And throw this key
For in that prison
I am doing only myself
This rage filled harm

Sunday, June 3, 2012


New smells, new sights
I don't have my bearings
Where have I landed
That I don't understand
I realize suddenly
This new place is a mystery
To me and my friends
And we are all nervous
But as with any place
Positives and negatives
Are always present
So it is our job
To make the positives 
Greater than ever

Saturday, June 2, 2012


This taste is luscious
Salty and rich
I bite down rough
And tear evenly
How sweet it is
To taste this meat
Flesh of someone
So similar to me
People say it's wrong
But how can it be
When it is my nature?
I say I will continue
Until death does me in
For I am a cannibal

Friday, June 1, 2012


Breathe easy
For I am your savior
No more fear
For I am your keeper
No more struggles
For I am your shoulder
Enjoy a lasting life
For I am your youth
And I can be all these things
Just for you
Because you are for me
The mother of our children
The wife of my fantasy
And the best friend of dreams

Thursday, May 31, 2012


Turning this corner
I blew this out of proportion
I jumped to conclusions
And I must apologize
I will grovel
And I will beg
Forgiveness seems forever away
Until the sudden realization
I was right all along
And you are a coward
You couldn't admit
The one thing I asked
And I should have seen it
So get out of my head
And out of my life
I don't want this anymore
So I will end this controversy

Wednesday, May 30, 2012


You walk around
With eyes wide open
But you don't see
What is in front of you
If you could take a look
Through my eyes
You would see clearly
How wrong he is
And this madness
Running inside your head
Would be calmed
A storm settled
So please take a minute
To step back away
See that he is wrong
And I am who's right

Tuesday, May 29, 2012


Roaming these shadows
I will maintain my shine
And though no other follows
I will make this moment mine
I am my own role model
And I control my destiny
No drowning in a bottle
They can not get the best of me
I will stand tall
In the face of it all
For what is best for me
And what is best for y'all
So do not fear me
And fear not this night
For all that is me
I will stand and fight

Monday, May 28, 2012


Move against me
And I will pull you along
Fight against me
And I will turn your side
Argue with me
And I will change your mind
Hate me
And I will love you all along

Sunday, May 27, 2012


And in this Hell
I will march steady
For I have nothing to hide
And nothing to fear
I am not ashamed of my past
Nor am I angry about my future
Hell may have called me
But I know my true place
I may not have these wings
That just means I will work
And fight for them
No matter what the obstacle
I breathe in the evil
And exhale purity
For I serve my God
On Earth and in Hell
So break me down
And push me to extinction
But I will stand my ground
And watch the rest burn

Saturday, May 26, 2012


Give it up
The hope of civilization
Among your peers
Who ignore it
They will disrespect
And tear down
All that is close to them
With no pause
A lack of authority
Only kids could possess
An anger only convicts
Could being to fathom
So join them
Let off your steam
And breathe slow
As you tear it down

Friday, May 25, 2012


The light is blacked out
This sun will no longer shine
I breathe this putrid air
Suffocating all along
This evil way of life
Has asserted itself upon me
And with no remorse
My life is overtaken
I rid myself of any beauty
And burden myself further
For I do not deserve peace
Only agony and pain
As I watch another
And their life inside
Fade from their eyes
As they breathe their final breath

Thursday, May 24, 2012


Sing that song
That heavenly hymn
It vibrates my ears
With a harmonious pitch
I strain to listen
To hear it clearly
But alas no luck
And I remain unfortunate
I wish to hear this tune
As I approach heaven's gates
So that I may recognize 
All the rumored beauty
That will be instilled upon me
So as I rise above
I give up my selfish ways
And let the quiet be my tune
When I hear this song
Begin to be sung

Wednesday, May 23, 2012


These curtains are blinders
They hide me from the world
From the real truth
I live sheltered and solo
In fear of what might happen
If I take a chance
So here I sit alone
No light shines through
Only sounds creep in
And they are beautiful
So how could it be so bad?
I take a peak at this world
And see a bright, sunny day
My heart is filled with joy
I will no longer hide myself
I will enjoy God's gift
And go forth into the world

Tuesday, May 22, 2012


This Hell surrounds me
I am trapped in a ring
A fiery devil's trap
As that is what I am
A devil to myself
Endangering, and losing
This battle to the king
The king of the Underworld
But I will not let it stand
This is my life and body
And no one can take
What I have not given
So begone Devil
For I am liberated
And stand erect
As a new man

Monday, May 21, 2012


My heart comes to rest
Finally and forevermore
I am at peace here
After struggling for so long
I fought all that I could
And went through suffering
But it wasn't in the cards
I knew I would fall
But in my time of dying
I inspired millions
That fighting is possible
And that living is an option
Because no matter how bad
Or sickening it became
Dying was not an option
I was going to make the most
And capitalize on my life
Because there are few miracles
But life is one of them
And I was not going to waste mine

Sunday, May 20, 2012


My eyes burn
As I look into the sun
But not just the sun
The first light
These storm clouds
They have hovered
For years now
Blocking out light
But today
They have cleared
Revealing magnificent
Beautiful light
Onto this world
We shall rebuild
From the decimation
Caused years ago
And become a people
Once more

Saturday, May 19, 2012


I have not a penny to my name
But my heart is solid gold
I may not have a big, warm house
But I can withstand the cold
I don't have a fancy car
But their a death trap, I'm told
I can't be picky about what I eat
I'll even take chances with mold
But at the end of this day
When people feel sorry for me
I just laugh and wave
And shake my head vigorously
I am the king of my life
And I am perfectly happy
For I can go no lower
That I can at least see
So pity me all you like
But you are the unfortunate ones
Because while I am satisfied with nothing
You never have enough funds
So cheers to my freedom
And cheers to your sons
For they will never know the meaning
Of being their own number one

Friday, May 18, 2012


The eyes of millions
Gasps for breath
Anguish for some
Ecstasy for others
But all of their hopes
Ride on this moment
Of whether I will
Succeed or fail
I fall to the ground
In the best area I could
As the leather
Meets my hands
I slide along this grass
Followed by the enemy
As the whistle blows
And I am successful